I have been dwelling in the past for the past few weeks since dad died. Maybe because I am a daddy’s girl and to think that last Sept 30 was my very first birthday without him. I was used to talking to him in the morning about current events, if he had taken his meds and the menu for the day. Sadly I haven’t been doing those for the last 45 days. Sigh* Sigh…
And just this morning as I was having for usual daydream and reminiscin’ of those happy days with him, my daughter came up to me wanting to play. As usual I wasn’t in the mood to play with her. She then grabbed her toys and played alone, laughing by herself. I just watched her. And she looked at me handing me the ball saying, “mommy, catch!”. It was then that I realized, I am losing time for my kids. I have to move on and pick up my senses.
So I got the ball and played with her. I turned on the TV for morning news and just in time, it was Ogie Diaz’s showbiz news segment where he sings “Locomotion”. Xelynah got up and danced like Ogie! I was surprised/amazed and sad at the same time that she learned that from the TV instead of me teaching her those things. I just hugged and kissed her. I so miss my baby!
So I told myself, no more crying. Time to be with my family and gather my senses again. I barely slept because I played the whole day with her. We need some catching up to do.
Filed under: Hanyzzzzz!!!!, home sweet home | Tagged: family, xelynah
