Angry? Try this…

I.AM.ANGRY!!!

I know I have a problem with anger management sometimes. I seldom get mad because I am a very patient person, but when I do prepare yourself for my rage of fury.

 

I don’t know when it started, all I know is that I am not like that before. I only cry in one corner, silently until I fall asleep. I still do it now. I still cry silently. My husband in fact admires me for that. He said it’s a talent to cry without a lil bit of sound. And I honestly can! You’ll just see uncontrollable tears welling in my eyes, and not an emotion on my face. The only difference is, these days, when I get mad, I have to break something or hit someone.

So my husband knows it. Whenever I cry he would say, “Hany, not the plates pls. Dito na lang, basta isa lang ha!”, while pointing to his triceps. And me with all my strength will throw that one punch-big time! And that’s it. Weird? Yes, I know. I know it’s psychological but whenever I tried to avoid it, i hyperventilate.

 

I am thankful that my husband is very supportive and I hope that he doesn’t get tired of me. God knows I want to change and how much I am working on it.  In fact I want to visit one of these plate-smashing restaurants. One of the originals is Sarah’s Smash Shack located in San Diego, CA. She charges $10 & up for a 15-minutes rage. And good news, we have a local version! A Mayan/Aztec themed floating restaurant named Isdaan Restaurant in Gerona, Tarlac offers the same concept for Php 15 and up.  They have the “Tacsiyapo Wall” where you can smash plates, cups, drinking glasses, even televisions! You just write the names of the people you hate and smash it on the wall while shouting “tacsiyapo” on top of your lungs. By the way “tacsiyapo” means “walanghiya/bwiset” in Kapampangan. Wow! That must feel so good. I can’t wait to visit that restaurant. I think I’m gonna used up a whole dining set. Cheaper way of therapy anyway, so for all of you who have the same problem as I do, see you there and smash those!